#%&$!

The title of this post is the only way I know how to express how I feel about the next thing that happened.

I had borrowed dad's tractor to shred my land and was taking it back to him. As I pulled in, the gate was already open. I started to pull the tractor in and find the best way to back it in. Her son started walking over to my truck. In my mind I thought he was going to ask me to put the tractor in a specific place or whatever. I rolled down my window and to my shock, he begins to scold me like a child. There are multiple words that were used that I can only use symbols to explain what was said. "Keep my #%&$! families name out of your mouth", was said multiple times. My reply was that I had no clue what he was talking about. He continued with the same anger and comments. I kept replying with the same response. I really didn't know what he was talking about. About that time she comes walking up and says that I told my uncles and grandpa about her son buying the land. To which I replied "I didn't say #$%&@!" Her son yelled at her to go away. It kept getting heated to a point that he threatened to beat my @$$. He at one point asked me "Do you understand me" like I was his child or beneath him. He said it more than once and was saying that is a "yes or no question". I rolled my eyes and said whatever. He told me to get off his property and never set one foot back on. I told him I was unloading my dad's tractor and then would do just that. I quickly disconnected the trailer from my truck and pulled off. I was proud that my emotions didn't get the best of me at that moment. For some reason any emotion I have comes out with tears that I can't control, but not in that moment.

I pulled off the property and onto the road and immediately called my dad. That is when my emotions hit. "If that is the #$%&! family you want, you go ahead and have them. I am through and if you want to have a relationship with me, you will come to me." I explained what happened and told him I didn't say anything to my uncles or any family member for that matter. I heard her talking in the background. I told him she was right there in the #$%&! middle of it. I called Crystal and told her what just happened. She said it was unfortunate timing, because they had just left there about 5 minutes ago. She said she had spoken with our grandpa about the land and we felt that dad was being taken advantage of. I called my wife and told her. As I was almost home my dad texted me and asked where I was and if he could come over. When he got there, the first thing out of his mouth was I'm sorry, but he begin to tell me he would get me some money. I told him that money has nothing to do with this and I don't want money. I just want to be able to have a relationship with him, be able to go to his house and sit and talk, but I'm not allowed to do that. I told him that I didn't talk to anyone but it is my family and if I want to talk to them I can and it doesn't matter what about. Who cares if I told my family that her son bought dads land. It was the truth. I told him they are vile people and that she is no longer allowed around me, my family and definitely not ever allowed on my property again. He then proceeded to tell us that my uncle kicked her son, his animals and equipment off his land.

I called my uncle and asked him what happened. He apologized for using my name, but he said that he started to tell her son that "Justin and Crystal think you are taking advantage of their dad" Which is, was, and will always be the truth, however, her son kept interrupting him and all he said was "Justin thinks you are taking advantage of his dad" . Her son was just pulling in from getting his stuff off my uncles land when I pulled in with the tractor. It was extremely unfortunate timing. My uncle mentioned that during their interaction he mentioned that if he saw me in public he was going to beat me. The next day dad came over to my house and helped me winterize my camper. He had already told me he would before all this happened. While there, he told me and my wife that he told her that he might be moving out. He then told us that she said she would move with him. We told him that this doesn't fix a thing that she is the root of the problem. He also told me that her son came over with blue prints for a new house that he gets to live in until he dies. I asked him to let me know what he was deciding on doing and as he was leaving I told him he was choosing her and her family over us and he said he was trying to do both to which I said I don't think you can.

I guess I'm now at a place where Whatever It Takes to accept and get past this.